Reflections- the journey of a soul!

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On the inside, all the hidden mess

All that I am scared to confess

The outside seems as a lie

Maybe the stakes are too high

You can only pretend to be nice

For to be nice on the inside, you’d have to be wise

Not a place to live in the past

For a thing that isn’t going to last

To the world, it seems pious

On the inside it feels poisonous

The more cleaner they look

The more dirt they have took

Wouldn’t be easy to live in silence

You’re gonna have to pay the price

Samar Asif, a psychology graduate, quiet outside, loud inside, is interested in understanding the human nature and personality. She wants to dig into how lost souls find the path which could lead them to success.

I am grateful that she shared her reflections with us; may Allah SWT help us find our way back to our origin and fitrah and may we be empowered to reclaim our heart, which is gradually dripping in glamour and attractions of dunya (world), the temporary abode of a believer!
Jazakumullah khair.


Because Reality will intervene eventually. . .


Hira Ahmed, another psychology fellow and one of the bravest persons I have ever met in life, shares her speech on “Narcissism”. She is not promoting pessimism at all; lets go down our memory lanes and figure out the times in our life, we were hoping for miracles without putting in efforts. Also, lets look into ourselves, for signs of self-love (ujub) and arrogance. Let’s also empower ourselves by embracing reality, In sha Allah!

Narcissism- in easy words self-love- and blind optimism which has become a major problem in today’s world! Wherever you look you can find people who are self-obsessed, one way or the other. I heard a famous song the other day which says something like “I want the world to revolve around me” with no apparent sarcasm.

People have forgotten that there is a line between healthy self-esteem and narcissism. So much so that usually the first reaction to the word narcissism is “what’s so wrong with loving yourself?” And the once very obvious stance that narcissism is a bad thing is now debated for hours and hours.

So let me first briefly tell you what’s wrong with narcissism then I’ll move on to the purpose of my debate which is how we are unintentionally encouraging our children to be narcissists and naïve.

Narcissism makes a person selfish! It makes a person inconsiderate to others feelings. It makes you arrogant and naive. It makes you think that the world revolves around you and the problem with that is (for those of who, who still haven’t figure out) it’s a lie!! The world does not revolve around you and it doesn’t owe you anything. Narcissism makes you expect too much from others and it makes you upset when others are not able to fulfill your expectations!

Now coming to the purpose of the speech, when we tell our kids that they are special and when we give them trophies for loosing with the intention of encouraging them to try harder, we are missing a point that although a few kids are getting encouraged to try hard, others are getting the idea that it’s okay to lose because they are special and they will get a trophy anyway. It teaches them that they don’t have to work for they want to achieve, they will achieve it anyway. This makes them naive. Because once done with student life things are not going to be the same, they are going to have to work for what they want in life. Nobody is going to give them anything because they think they are special.

Social media also plays an important role in this new found love for ourselves. You upload a picture and minutes later you are receiving compliments and you think that having a pretty face is all you need in life. And mostly the compliments aren’t even honest. People just give compliments so when they upload a picture they can get the favor back. I read this news a few days back that a boy actually tried to kill himself because he was not satisfied with the quality of his selfies. So now pictures of a person decide their worth. Insanity. Total insanity. What happened to having a personality and a character and morals? Where did all of that go? All they want is a pretty face.

Now I want to talk about this trend of motivational messages which make people naïve. “You can be anything you want to be”, “Believe in yourself and you can achieve anything” really? I wanted to be boy. So you’re saying if I just keep telling myself that I am a boy I will become one? Thousands of waiters in L.A wanted to be actors. And they still want that but the problem is that there are too many of them. If everybody could get what they want of they believed in themselves, I don’t think we’d have servants because I’m pretty sure that it’s not what they dreamed of. It just doesn’t make any sense.

All sarcasm aside I’m sure that some people benefit and gain hope from such advice but I worry about many others who grow up without an armor to protect them when things aren’t so sugarcoated. Because reality will intervene eventually. It always does. And believing in yourself doesn’t help much when your mother is addicted to crack and you are afraid to go home from school.

There is an old proverb that “Hope for the best and prepare for the worst” but we have so conveniently got rid of the second part and just blindly hope for the best without preparing for the worst.

Many people her would misunderstand what I’m trying to say and think that I’m promoting pessimism but I am not. I’m just asking you to be careful and watch out for the fine line between s high self-esteem and narcissism, and a line between optimism and being naive.


After reading this, I have been pondering over the following words:

  • The heart can also be naked like the body and can lose its dress and decoration, which is piety, and it can feel hunger and thirst like the body does, and its nourishment is knowledge, love, trust, and offering service to Allah. Imam Ibn-al-Qayyim (rahimullah)
  • “The ibtilaa’ (testing) of the believer is like medicine for him. It cures him from illness. Had the illness remained it would destroy him or diminish his reward and level (in the hereafter). The tests and the trials extract these illnesses from him and prepare him for the perfect reward and the highest of degrees (in the life to come). Ibn-al- Qayyim 

Allah (SWT) says in Surah Al-e-Imran, Ayah 29- 30

Whether you hide what is in your breasts or reveal it, Allah knows it, and He knows what is in the heavens and what is in the earth. And Allah is Able to do all things.On the Day when every person will be confronted with all the good he has done, and all the evil he has done, he will wish that there were a great distance between him and his evil. And Allah warns you against Himself (His Punishment) and Allah is full of Kindness to the (His) slaves.

Let’s beautify our insides for Allah’s pleasure. Let us put down those myths of pretty faces and impressing people around us or even expecting from them. Time to consider the reality which actually empowers you in the long-run!

Jazakumallah khair!

A Stark Reality


Trail 5 Islamabad

Trail 5

Trail 5

Yesterday I went on a road trip with two of my amazing friends. It was a random spontaneous plan to Islamabad. After a long taxi ride we stopped at the executive area in F-6 and walked 2km towards much awaited trail 5. It was sunny , but a lovely sunny day. Trail 5 looked so lonely and empty and we got even more excited because we all love solitude in our own little way. As soon as we started walking on the rocky path, two ‘guards’ sitting there started ogling at us like we belonged to some other planet. We ignored them for a while and kept walking but their mere presence and stare made us uncomfortable beyond our skin. And we walked back disappointed. It made me think what made us return back? Our own fear, their stare or just the prevailing circumstances. Why does a girl have to feel safe in the presence of a crowd, why can’t we explore our own fears? Sometimes we do have to step out of our comfort zone to understand the reality. May we see a day in Pakistan where every individual would feel safe mentally, physically and emotionally.

Stay strong peeps! Stay blessed.

Maham Waheed a fellow psychology student, my confidante, is someone who struggles to understand realities often through bitter experiences. She is an inspiration in herself; she embraces life all the more through self-discovery.

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